Satta- Kissa Kursi Ka

Sitting in Air conditioned Lab and getting all the services at ur doorstep and talking about faulty system isn’t the way to get the feeling of system and complain about the same. But then I got the opportunity to get the feel of this system. In fact it’s not for the first time I came across this system. Dad, being a Central Govt. Employee, we have lived that way till date. But things are really different at different levels. But what is common everywhere- corruption and misuse of positions.

All this game is about position. I prefer calling it Kissa Kursi ka.

For my new job, I needed character certificate from Gazetted officer which has to be attested by 1^st class Magistrate, District Magistrate or Sub- divisional Magistrate. Now I wondered how these high authority people will give me character certificate? It should be issued by someone known to me but I don’t know them and vice verse. It should be given by my school/ college Principal who knows me but then that’s how system works. I’ve to run pillars to pillars (rather floor to floor on various offices- Tehsildar, SDM and DM) to get this certificate.

I saw the pathetic state of Govt office where there is no proper guidance and only chaos and crowd. I failed to understand that when we call these IAS officer civil servants, are they actually serving us? We, so called, "the people of India" can change the picture of democracy but can we change this system? Can we change mid-set of that SDM who asked me to go UP to get this certificate? I failed to understand that in spite of coming from the same background what happens when power comes to ur hands? Why the same person doesn’t remain the same now and doesn’t wish to help a genuine person? Its indeed again all about power and position.

Searching DC office and waiting for indefinite time for a signature was really tough but had no other option. Here I realized that common’s man time isn’t of any relevance at all but getting time from these high profile people isn’t easy task. But it was worth waiting as I could get my work done (finally after 6 hours). But I had one more topic of Kursi to learn. There were MLAs who delayed for another hour even after I got seal on my application.

After this experience I’m thinking to join Politics but will it clean this system???????????????????

Got License to thrill

Finally I got it. Though it was delayed by 2 days and I was desperate to get it, the excitement remained the same. I knew my result but still there remains curiosity to get marks card like any other Exam. Ya getting a driving License (DL) indeed was like a Exam to me. I first appeared for written test (LL test) on 13^th April which was followed by practical Exams on 23^rd May. Result was declared on the same day but marks card was awaited. And finally I got that also. It was nice to go by my vehicle to get DL.

I could feel that excitement and thrill within. But traffic and chaos also gave me different feeling. There are many unfulfilled wishes and I want to fulfill them. But at the same time I want to cautious in this process of thrill. I don’t want to join that crowd who become overconfident and impatient and drive recklessly. I want to be among those few who care not only for their safety but others safety too. I was very cautious while driving today and want to continue the same.

There are many lessons to be learnt and I want to learn them safely. So guys wish me happy and safe driving.

D day has come (continued part……..)

So finally the day is over and thank God ! all went all right. There were butterflies in my stomach which dint allow me sleep properly and my physical & emotional state of mind wasn’t supporting to go and take the test. But then there was no escape.

Day started early and I finally started for my driving school with all best wishes of my family. They were quite concerned about how would I manage but then I had to show the best. There was one corner which was still sad but thanks to my polar bear who decided to come out of hibernation to wish me good luck. There was no turning back after that.

It took time to finish formalities at RTO office and it did give that Govt. offices feeling but I tried to understand their load of work also. Then came the testing time. I was among first group of people while driving car and my driving was appreciated by Inspector. Had to wait for some time for 2 wheeler test and finally got through that also. It was wonderful feeling to hear result-Pass. And why not when it was sort of one Exam itself (Practical)?

Then there were calls to home and few friends who congratulated me. I never thought I would be able to take 2 of my friends for drive on day one itself. Deepak became the first person and I could fulfill his wish to go for a drive (I’ll be waiting for his comment for this blog). Later on another close friend Nitya called up and we decided to meet. They both had apprehensions but all went alright and they felt good for the safe driving.

Later at home all congratulated me and I received some calls from friends too. In fact all have started plans to take them around the city soon. But then I’m waiting to fulfill one old wish of someone special and I know I’ll get that opportunity soon. I’m indeed happy. Have yet to wait till Thursday to get DL. But then few days wait is fine to fulfill awaited dreams. Isn’t it?

D day has come

This event which is so special to me started almost 1& ½ months back (in fact its 9 years old story). The final day which was awaited from the beginning has finally come. I call it ‘D day’. This came as a big curiosity to my most of the friends and when they got to know they were surprised again. Some of my friends wonder why am I giving it so much of importance? But how to explain them the importance of this event in my life? It’s about feeling within. It’s about overcoming my fear, embarrassments and one step closer to being more Independent. So getting a driving license (DL) indeed is a big and special moment in my life. It is associated with many unfulfilled wishes which can be fulfilled now. Getting one additional identity proof is a bonus (;-)

DL test is tomorrow and I’ve mixed feelings within. I’m excited and happy. But at the same time there is a bit of nervousness (in fact family is more scared thinking how would I manage everything by own). Health is down but I’ll pull up my socks and go for it. Ya somewhere deep within I’m sad also coz the person who was always excited about it and wanted to sit at the back and go for drive is under hibernation. But then I know that is momentary and the special day is at the corner when I would be able to fulfill that wish.

To be continued……………. till tomorrow when I can write about my experience.

18 years ago

18 years have passed but I still remember that date very well. The date which gave a big shock to our Nation and its countrymen.

We had been to our native to enjoy our summer vacations. I was happy to get first rank and promotion to next class-3^rd Std. There was mixed response for one more thing- Dad’s transfer to Assam which wasn’t considered very safe place (then and now too). It was mixed coz we were excited to explore new place but at the same time there was fear too.

And in the amidst of all these, this news was broken and whole of my village and Nation mourned.
“Rajeev Gandhi has been assassinated” spread like fire in the forest. Very few people had TV in my native 18 years back. Radio and newspaper were best source of communication. He had gone to Sriperumbudur for campaigning. For the first time suicide bombing was used for a great loss to our country.

Whole village mourned so do I. But their reasons were different from mine. For an innocent child like me, we lost Rajeev Gandhi who was our PM and very handsome person whom I admired. But later as years passed, I realized what we lost. We lost a gem. We lost an icon, politician who believed in bringing reforms.

I always hated LTTE who were mastermind behind his assassination. Few days back when news of LTTE chief Prabhakaran’s death was broken, I felt bit good. I paid my homage to Rajeev for the final justice. Today I do the same again on his 18^th death Anniversary. May his soul rest in peace (Amen).

That was so wonderful feeling

“It thrills but kills”. Had heard this phrase from time immemorial. But in my case before it could thrill, it killed. It killed my confidence and gave me so much of fear which took years to come out.

Those fantasies to be behind the steers and go for a long drive with my family, later with my boy friend also couldn’t prevent me from my fear. Those embarrassments in front of friends were also not enough to overcome that nervousness. The nervousness to take car in traffic was really too much to even avoid the temptation of driving.

But today I proudly say that I’m overcoming my fear. Thanks to my Parents who decided to enroll me in driving school. Dad believed that I’ll never appreciate that teacher in him and learn driving from him. He also believed that value of a skill has much weightage when u’ve to pay to learn that. Whatever he thought but I’m thankful to my Parents for the biggest reason-to make me further Independent. In spite of having car we were dependent on him to go out anywhere even when it was all Ladies shopping. He doesn’t want the same in my future life. And this feeling of being Independent became the biggest reason to try overcoming my fear.

I’ve almost finished with all my classes and today was very special as I took Mom along with me. It was such a wonderful feeling to see her mixed reactions of happiness, surprise, joy and a bit of fear. I felt as if I took my first step as kid and she saw me with proud and smile. Thanks to that wonderful feeling and I wait to experience such bigger feelings in future with my family, love and friends.

How I came into this world

Today is very special day and it gives me pleasure to write my first blog on this occasion.
It is special coz thats gave me opportunity to come into this world.
A special creation (ya me) had to be born and for that a special journey had to be started.
It started many years ago on 13th May when my Parents tied knot. This journey has been with many ups and downs which evolved into a wonderful family of mine in the process.
They are ideal couple and share a good compatibility, mutual understanding, love, care and respect for each other. I and my siblings owe everything to them.

On their Wedding Anniversary I (we) wish them a happy married life and pray to God to bless them with everything which keep them happy (Amen)

Almost everything is ready and we'll have party soon. The biggest part is surprise gift to them.
I know it will be wonderful time.
Wishing them one more time.